i have found out...............

over time you learn new things, pick up old habits, and just overall become a smarter person. its called gaining experience, and recently with some of the new things going on in my life i have gained more experience than i probably want to ( at this time ).

i have found that some things u think are better left unsaid, really need to be said. because they can help u get the point across, or make people realize certain things that they didn't before. like telling your mom why u have been so mad at her. well when i told her that we become friends again and not enemies.

But the main reason i am writing this is for one recent discovery i have made, one new chunk of experience that has been added to my batch.

i have learned that the ones u thought were once so close to u, over time, and through hard times, in the end will cheat u. say things they think u don't know they r saying. People I Am Not Stupid !!!!!! so u never said i was, that doesn't mean u don't think it, or are not doing things that say that.

i am not writing this out of anger, i gusse u could say i am done being mad about it. i have just accepted the fact and moved on, so i hope u do to. i am not saying that we can never talk again, we can. i am just trying to let u know that what u r doing hurts. it doesn't matter if it is about me or not, its the fact that its about someone who is a huge part of my life. i am not trying to make u look like a bad person or anything. maybe u haven't gained that chunk of experience needed not to do this. so i hope this helps u in doing that. i don't hate u, i just cant believe what u have said/done.

so i don't want u to come up to me, tomorrow, in a week, or whenever u read this and say " im sorry" in a way that's not good enof. i want this dumb stuff to stop NOW!!! its not fair, at all. i think u need to accept some things and probably move on. so to make this all "ok" tomorrow just plz stop. that's all i am asking.

you might say i am over reacting, but if u new the whole story u would see were i am coming from. i don't want to name names, or right out say what this blog is about, out of respect. but i do need to get this off my chest, and this was the only way i could think of. you probably think its about a boyfriend, nope guise again. lol. ok so u think its me being mad at my mom or dad, or saying how i was. nope, srry. its not those things. trust me my parents, after reading this, will most likely know what its about. so when u do, mom and dad, plz tell me what u think. and dont be mad at me for writing this. i am just getting this off of my chest before it causes damage. more than already caused. plus this is my blog, i can talk about what i want to, without thinking about who will read it.

Don't worry !! the people this is for probably wont even read this, or when they do, even know its about them. which is even more my point. so someone will probably tell them to read this, and they will, and i will get asked about it. ohhh, how i cant wait. lol. plz don't go to my mom first, come to me if u think its about u. remember i wrote this!! i know!! but hey, since i said that u probably will go to her and not me. * expectations *

so ya, don't be "sorry" just stop, that's all i want.
and don't be mad at me 4 writing this because u think i am over reacting, I'm not!! i am getting my feelings out, expressing myself, and last time i checked i have freedom of expression.

so ya........ that's what i have to say, or as much as i have decided to. trust me some things were left out, remember the respect thing. well u can bet that there will be more to write, don't u worry, u will hear the rest of the story.

until next time - Chris X Christine

p.s. i dont care if it has stoped, it still went on. and dont say it has stoped cause i will bet money on it, it never will. move on!!!